I didn’t really want to write this post…not because I don’t love blogging or y’all because I do…more than anything. I didn’t want to write this post because what is most important to me when I’m blogging about my life is to never make life seem like some fake perfectly happy world.
My goal is always to be as honest as is possible with all of you. I strive to be real, raw, and open in all of my life updates. I do this because I’ve read too many books and seen too many movies where life is perfect and every story has a happy ending. That’s not the case most of the time. I want my blog to be a place where people can relate to my struggles and realize that they aren’t alone in their pain; not even for one minute. My blog name doesn’t have “struggling to thrive” in it for nothing.
Sooo…my last month at college. It wasn’t what I had expected for sure. It had a lot of shocking parts. Some that maybe I saw coming, but pushed off and lived in a little cocoon of happiness, refusing to break out and face reality. But, there were definitely some that I absolutely never saw coming in a million years. Not all of them were bad either, thank goodness.
Stuff That Happened My Final Month
I had a really good week around mid-April! I don’t know why, but it was just one of those weeks where everything goes your way everyday and you’re like, “what the heck is going on?!” My family surprised me with a visit and my sister stayed on campus a few days to check out my college! I should have smelled trouble because life was just too great. 😂🙈
I stayed on campus over Easter break with a few friends because I didn’t have a ride home and my parents couldn’t come pick me up. Yea…now I kinda was a little concerned about this and figured that tensions could run high with so few people on campus, but I never suspected what came. I’m not going to go into detail, but basically this week caused me to need an extension on a paper, feel like I was gonna faint, and get a really bad flu. 😓😧🙏
I got a really bad flu and was throwing up and keeping nothing down, not even fluid. I threw up 10 times in one day. I ate one bowl of ramen over 4 days. It was so bad! While I was still recovering from this, I basically lost a friendship. 😷
One of the people I had stayed on campus with during Easter break and I had a disagreement and it got pretty heated. Anyway, this person essentially made it seem like our friendship hadn’t really meant that much to them and they didn’t exactly want to be anything more than really good acquaintances for a bit. To say that I felt angry and betrayed would be a pretty big understatement. 😣 Again, this is while I still have a flu. 😳😥
I went to spring formal and had a pretty good time and enjoyed the group date that my friends and I went on! 😎🎊🌹
I completed my 8-10 page research paper that was super hard!! 😓🎊
I survived finals week, just barely, but I still did!! Yay me!! 🎉😝😎
I learned a valuable lesson or two during finals week about how to not die and how important it is to not base how your friendships are going off of finals week. 😝
Maybe I’m stupid???
I rediscovered my love of Veggie Tales when it helped me to cope during the last week! 😂🍅
And they don’t have a cucumber emoji, this is a crime.
I became a sophomore officially!! 🎊🎉😝😎 It’s still unbelievable that I’m no longer a freshman and I made it through a year of college, but I did!! 😁
I said goodbye to some of my favorite people in the world and I only cried for like a half hour. 😂😝🙈👋😭
Isn’t my month great so far? 😂😓 Oh, wait…pictures, it just wouldn’t be complete without pictures showing my stressed smiles. 😂😝😣
That’s all for pictures! 📷
Now for some insanely funny quotes finals week…don’t judge…our minds are not fully with us!
*All names have been changed for privacy purposes*
Catherine : “Sam, how are you?” Sam : “Caffeinated.”
Ally : “We are always being watched. It’s only when we think about it that it becomes creepy.”
Daisy : “I’m losing my mind, but it’s fine.”
Michelle talking about taking one of her finals(I was trying to encourage her to just do her best) : “I will try, but it will not go well.”
Me : “Daisy, do you mind if we roll down your car windows and just scream?” Daisy : “What? Sure, that’s fine, I’ll join you.”
Well, that wraps up this month! I am going to be posting a freshman year in review type of post with a lot more reflection on freshman year as a whole, but for now this was just to give you the last monthly update until September. I now have much more time on my hands to get back to regular posting!!